Just some thoughts this evening...

Have you ever liked someone but didnt like them at the same time. Im not sure if I feel this way because I feel like I HAVE to like this person or what. Shes a nice woman, but I just dont feel this connection with her. Which is strange because from what I understand, everyone loves this woman. And in a way, I do. Shes a good woman and makes jokes and can cook. But, I just cant CONNECT with her. And now I am going to have to spend a whole week with her and I dont know what Im going to do with myself. Ugh. I just dont know.

I just think that if I were in the situation that "my friend" were in right now, I wouldnt have my mom come to be with me for a whole week. I think I would have my mom come by for the day and into the evening and then she would leave and let me get on with things. I JUST DONT KNOW!!! \

Ugh!! This is completely eating me up inside. I just dont know what to do. I cant say that I dont think whats going on isnt right because its not my place. But, oh my GOD! I whole WEEK?!?! I think I might just have to go over to my mothers just so I can get away. And thats not really GETTING AWAY!!

So what can I do for a whole week to keep busy and stay away from this woman at the same time? I can only take her for so long. And the thing is, is that if my friend were in my shoes...she would be feeling the same way! There is not doubt in my mind she would be feeling the same way. I can feel the anxiety just when my friend is in my situation.

This email makes no sense, Im just not trying to put names and relations in the same email. I dont want it to feel like im attacking or hating on someone. I just dont know what Im going to do with myself and it almost makes me want to cry over.

God Forbid this woman ever move into someones basement. I would have to leave...for good.

Just a little catcher up...

Its been a while since I wrote in the blog so I figured since I have some time on my hands, I might as well.

I havent really been doing anything lately. Just chillin at the house. I havent had a lot of money or any spending money. I still do NOT have a job and Im getting a little stressed out about it. I have put in more applications than anyone can imagine and Im just not having any luck.

Me and Mary are doing fantastic! I am so madly in love with her. I fall more and more in love with her every day. I always find something else that I love about her. Its going great and I couldnt ask for anything more.

My mom and brother are the same...same shit different day. I was sooo stressed out from my mother for a while. She was telling me about everything that my brothers were and were not doing at the house like I am supposed to do something about it. Ugh. But, finally my brothers stepped up and did something and it chilled her out. Thank goodness. I thought for a minute I was going to lose my mind.

Well, thats about it for me. Nothing really exciting to write today. Maybe there will be something to write about tomorrow.

We will see...