I woke up at 3.30am and I laid there. And laid there. I rolled over and looked at my phone. It was 4.30am. Shortly after that I was finally able to fall asleep. It wasnt until Mary was leaving (when she woke me up), that I realized that I was not going to be able to go back to sleep, yet again. So Im up. I slept long enough anyhow. Plus, I need to go to bed later and wake up earlier. Im getting wayyyy to much sleep which is causing me to not be able to sleep at night. Although, since taking a sleeping pill for a week, I think I was able to put myself on a schedule again. At least I can fall asleep at night now.
The sleeping pill fucked me up tho. I took it and started having weird ass dreams. At first it was cool. Then the dreams started becoming bad dreams and it wasnt so cool. Ive stopped taking the sleeping pill, which has been like a week, and I STILL have these weird/bad dreams. Some are okay but some get really personal. And of course Monday night I had a bad dream and I cried about it at the dinner table last night. Im such a baby. I was having a bad day over all and talking about the dream sent me over the edge. But talking about it made me feel a little better.
And of course to help take the edge off, me and Mary sat in front of our Christmas tree. :) I like my Christmas tree. It turned out better than I thought. I was soooo worried that we were not going to have enough ornaments. But we had just enough. There isnt too much on the tree but the tree is def covered. Im happy with the way it turned out. And of course Mary is happy with the tree too.
I put the Christmas tree up on Sunday night because I couldnt wait for Monday night. I really wanted to get the tree up asap for some reason. Well, Ive been wanting to put it up since we bought the ornaments and then when the tree finally arrived. We bought a new tree...prelit. :) And I couldnt wait for it to get here. And when it did, I wanted to put it up. And im pretty sure it was before Halloween when it came. I was just so excited. This is my first Christmas tree after moving out of my mothers. It means a lot. And on top of that, its Mary and I's for tree together. We had what she likes to call her "Christmas bush." Its white painted tree sticks in a plant container filled with dirt. The dirt is just for stability. Oh and she strung up white lights on it so it would constitute as a "Christmas" bush? Yeah, Im not exactly sure, but I did know that I did not want it again this year. haha. No thanks!
We are also having a Christmas party at the house. Family and friends are coming over to celebrate with us. Of course we are all broke MF's so we called the Christmas party a "pot luck" party. Everyone is bringing something and then we are going to have some things. I would have loved to been able to make everything and just have people come but it would have been impossible. Especially since I still do not have a job. Ugh. Thats another story in itself. But we are glad everyone can come. It will be nice to get the two families together. YAY! My mom has meet everyone, but my Aunts, Uncle and grandmother havent and they havent been over my house.
Ive been decorating the house since Saturday. It looks really good. We put garland on the steps going upstairs and put our stocking up. :) Gosh, I am such a homo!!! hahaha.
Well, Im done this post today. Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving tomorrow!!!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Just some thoughts this morning...
Im crazy bored right now. The cable is out...gotta pay that bill and Ive gone to just about every site on the web. Think its impossible...go without cable. And the thing is, I dont watch TV all the time. Usually I am doing something else. OR Im on the internet myspacing it. But the fact that I dont have the option of watching tv is driving me crazy. Ugh. And I dont have any lined paper...which is really weird because I always make sure I have some spiral notebooks around just so I can write whenever I feel like it. I have no idea where they all went. Soooo...Im writing in my blog.
I havent been able to sleep lately. Well, since Ive been unemployed I havent had to get up at a certain time and I get an average of about 10-12 hours of sleep each day. Maybe thats why I am not able to sleep. Who knows. I still go to bed at 9-9.30pm every night but I get up at 8-8.30am. Craziness. So anyhow. For the last 2 or 3 nights Ive been taking a sleeping pill hoping that maybe I can get on a regular schedule. So far...I still go to sleep at the same time and get up at the same time. So, I dont know if its actually working. haha. I guess taking it a half hour before I go to bed doesnt help either. Maybe I need to take it at like 6pm and pass the hell out and that way maybe I would get up earlier than 8am. Who knows. Its not like I have something to do everyday. I just hate not being able to go to bed when I want to.
Im still unemployed. YAY! Not. Its been 5 months. 5 MONTHS!!!! Thats crazy!! And its even harder now to find a job because the economy and everyone is laying people off not hiring. Ugh. It totally sucks. I really want to work. I REALLY want to make some good money. Im tired of getting a suck ass check from unemployment. Its nothing like getting a check from working. DONT GET ME WRONG...I have most def enjoyed this break from working. Its been really nice. But, Im ready to go back and start working again. I dont know what to do with myself most days. I wake up, I go online, I watch some tv, I do something around the house or I just lay around, I make dinner, watch some evening tv and then go to bed. Thats pretty much what I do everyday. Of course when its payday I do all my running that I couldnt do before because most of the time at the end of two weeks im completely BROKE! I HATE being broke. When I was working I would say that I was broke but I had like $100 when I got paid again. So I had SOME money. Now, literally I have NO money at the end of two weeks. But, then again...how far can you really stretch $608 every two weeks?!? It doesnt go as far as you might think. Even tho Im not making as much, my bills dont go down. :( I did have an interview on Friday and I really hope I get it. It would be really nice. I dont have any idea how I did in the interview. The woman was really nice but I think she was already set in what she wanted her assistant to do and I didnt really have experience doing that. But, of course I tried my best to sell myself. I think I did a good job at that. As much as this would be the ideal job (its on Light Street downtown which is 6.5 miles away from my house), I have not put all my energy or thoughts into this being my job. I dont want to be disapointed when they say that they didnt want me. But, this would be a great learning experience for a job.
Home life has been good. I cant argue. Of course there are some parts that could be better but they dont out weigh the good. Me and my gf have been great. We are both excited about Thanksgiving, putting up the Christmas tree, having a Christmas party, and then Christmas. We are going to make the best of everything even with monies being tight. But, we will make it work!! Thats always been my motto. MAKE IT WORK!
My little brother is turning 18...I can NOT believe that. I remember feeding him a bottle when we were little. He has turned out to be a good kid and young man. And now he is going to be 18. WOW! My other brother is going to be 20 this year! I mean WTF?! Time goes by soooo fast. I will be 23 in February. Thats amazing. I didnt think I was going to make it this far. I was one of those bad ass kids at one point in my life. Anyhow. I am taking my brother out for birthday to the club. He asked me to take him out. He wanted me to take him to the strip club but that I was just a BIT to much for me. It was bad enough that I took my other brother there for his 18th birthday. And it was crazy awkward. I could even look at him. Ugh. Gives me the creeps just thinking about it. haha. Its okay to know that he has sex...everyone does. But, to be at strip club and have your little brother looking at the same woman on the dancefloor...Ive got to stop there. haha. ANYHOW! Im taking my brother out for his birthday. I found a club that is 18 and over for him. There arent many out there anymore. And those that do have 18 and over its only on like one night a week. Thank goodness its on a Saturday.
The other night, I guess it was Tuesday night around 6.30pm, me and my love were just finishing up dinner and we were talking. All the sudden we hear a car racing down the street and then slamming on its brakes and skidding. It was one of those skids that you are waiting for a crash. Sure as shit, we hear a crash that sounded like it was right outside our house. We jump up and run outside. The first thought I had was MY CAR! Why? Well, my car is a piece of shit...BUT its the only running vehicle I have and even if it were in an accident I wouldnt get SHIT for it. Anyhow. So we run outside and so is all the other neighbors on the street. Everyone heard the crash and came running probably all thinking my same thought. Of course the car crashs and the people in the car run. There was a cop right on the scene so Im assuming that he was chasing the car and they got into an accident. Its cold as hell outside and I come out in capri pants and a tee shirt and NO shoes or socks. haha. Thats what curiousity will do. Everyone kept mentioning that God forbid that there was kids outside. We have a good number of young kids on our block and if this had just happened a couple of weeks ago before it got really cold, it could have been bad. No one was hurt. Our neighbor across the street had her car hit and smashed in and the light post was knocked over. But, thank goodness no one got hurt.
Well, today is payday. YAY. And ive got to do a bunch of running. Of course right now I would normally get off here and go and watch some tv...but no cable. Sooo...Im just going to have to entertain myself until the mail man gets here. :) Dont be surprised if there are a shit load of pictures of myself on myspace. haha. Its what I do when Im bored.
I havent been able to sleep lately. Well, since Ive been unemployed I havent had to get up at a certain time and I get an average of about 10-12 hours of sleep each day. Maybe thats why I am not able to sleep. Who knows. I still go to bed at 9-9.30pm every night but I get up at 8-8.30am. Craziness. So anyhow. For the last 2 or 3 nights Ive been taking a sleeping pill hoping that maybe I can get on a regular schedule. So far...I still go to sleep at the same time and get up at the same time. So, I dont know if its actually working. haha. I guess taking it a half hour before I go to bed doesnt help either. Maybe I need to take it at like 6pm and pass the hell out and that way maybe I would get up earlier than 8am. Who knows. Its not like I have something to do everyday. I just hate not being able to go to bed when I want to.
Im still unemployed. YAY! Not. Its been 5 months. 5 MONTHS!!!! Thats crazy!! And its even harder now to find a job because the economy and everyone is laying people off not hiring. Ugh. It totally sucks. I really want to work. I REALLY want to make some good money. Im tired of getting a suck ass check from unemployment. Its nothing like getting a check from working. DONT GET ME WRONG...I have most def enjoyed this break from working. Its been really nice. But, Im ready to go back and start working again. I dont know what to do with myself most days. I wake up, I go online, I watch some tv, I do something around the house or I just lay around, I make dinner, watch some evening tv and then go to bed. Thats pretty much what I do everyday. Of course when its payday I do all my running that I couldnt do before because most of the time at the end of two weeks im completely BROKE! I HATE being broke. When I was working I would say that I was broke but I had like $100 when I got paid again. So I had SOME money. Now, literally I have NO money at the end of two weeks. But, then again...how far can you really stretch $608 every two weeks?!? It doesnt go as far as you might think. Even tho Im not making as much, my bills dont go down. :( I did have an interview on Friday and I really hope I get it. It would be really nice. I dont have any idea how I did in the interview. The woman was really nice but I think she was already set in what she wanted her assistant to do and I didnt really have experience doing that. But, of course I tried my best to sell myself. I think I did a good job at that. As much as this would be the ideal job (its on Light Street downtown which is 6.5 miles away from my house), I have not put all my energy or thoughts into this being my job. I dont want to be disapointed when they say that they didnt want me. But, this would be a great learning experience for a job.
Home life has been good. I cant argue. Of course there are some parts that could be better but they dont out weigh the good. Me and my gf have been great. We are both excited about Thanksgiving, putting up the Christmas tree, having a Christmas party, and then Christmas. We are going to make the best of everything even with monies being tight. But, we will make it work!! Thats always been my motto. MAKE IT WORK!
My little brother is turning 18...I can NOT believe that. I remember feeding him a bottle when we were little. He has turned out to be a good kid and young man. And now he is going to be 18. WOW! My other brother is going to be 20 this year! I mean WTF?! Time goes by soooo fast. I will be 23 in February. Thats amazing. I didnt think I was going to make it this far. I was one of those bad ass kids at one point in my life. Anyhow. I am taking my brother out for birthday to the club. He asked me to take him out. He wanted me to take him to the strip club but that I was just a BIT to much for me. It was bad enough that I took my other brother there for his 18th birthday. And it was crazy awkward. I could even look at him. Ugh. Gives me the creeps just thinking about it. haha. Its okay to know that he has sex...everyone does. But, to be at strip club and have your little brother looking at the same woman on the dancefloor...Ive got to stop there. haha. ANYHOW! Im taking my brother out for his birthday. I found a club that is 18 and over for him. There arent many out there anymore. And those that do have 18 and over its only on like one night a week. Thank goodness its on a Saturday.
The other night, I guess it was Tuesday night around 6.30pm, me and my love were just finishing up dinner and we were talking. All the sudden we hear a car racing down the street and then slamming on its brakes and skidding. It was one of those skids that you are waiting for a crash. Sure as shit, we hear a crash that sounded like it was right outside our house. We jump up and run outside. The first thought I had was MY CAR! Why? Well, my car is a piece of shit...BUT its the only running vehicle I have and even if it were in an accident I wouldnt get SHIT for it. Anyhow. So we run outside and so is all the other neighbors on the street. Everyone heard the crash and came running probably all thinking my same thought. Of course the car crashs and the people in the car run. There was a cop right on the scene so Im assuming that he was chasing the car and they got into an accident. Its cold as hell outside and I come out in capri pants and a tee shirt and NO shoes or socks. haha. Thats what curiousity will do. Everyone kept mentioning that God forbid that there was kids outside. We have a good number of young kids on our block and if this had just happened a couple of weeks ago before it got really cold, it could have been bad. No one was hurt. Our neighbor across the street had her car hit and smashed in and the light post was knocked over. But, thank goodness no one got hurt.
Well, today is payday. YAY. And ive got to do a bunch of running. Of course right now I would normally get off here and go and watch some tv...but no cable. Sooo...Im just going to have to entertain myself until the mail man gets here. :) Dont be surprised if there are a shit load of pictures of myself on myspace. haha. Its what I do when Im bored.
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