Just some thoughts this morning...

Im crazy bored right now. The cable is out...gotta pay that bill and Ive gone to just about every site on the web. Think its impossible...go without cable. And the thing is, I dont watch TV all the time. Usually I am doing something else. OR Im on the internet myspacing it. But the fact that I dont have the option of watching tv is driving me crazy. Ugh. And I dont have any lined paper...which is really weird because I always make sure I have some spiral notebooks around just so I can write whenever I feel like it. I have no idea where they all went. Soooo...Im writing in my blog.

I havent been able to sleep lately. Well, since Ive been unemployed I havent had to get up at a certain time and I get an average of about 10-12 hours of sleep each day. Maybe thats why I am not able to sleep. Who knows. I still go to bed at 9-9.30pm every night but I get up at 8-8.30am. Craziness. So anyhow. For the last 2 or 3 nights Ive been taking a sleeping pill hoping that maybe I can get on a regular schedule. So far...I still go to sleep at the same time and get up at the same time. So, I dont know if its actually working. haha. I guess taking it a half hour before I go to bed doesnt help either. Maybe I need to take it at like 6pm and pass the hell out and that way maybe I would get up earlier than 8am. Who knows. Its not like I have something to do everyday. I just hate not being able to go to bed when I want to.

Im still unemployed. YAY! Not. Its been 5 months. 5 MONTHS!!!! Thats crazy!! And its even harder now to find a job because the economy and everyone is laying people off not hiring. Ugh. It totally sucks. I really want to work. I REALLY want to make some good money. Im tired of getting a suck ass check from unemployment. Its nothing like getting a check from working. DONT GET ME WRONG...I have most def enjoyed this break from working. Its been really nice. But, Im ready to go back and start working again. I dont know what to do with myself most days. I wake up, I go online, I watch some tv, I do something around the house or I just lay around, I make dinner, watch some evening tv and then go to bed. Thats pretty much what I do everyday. Of course when its payday I do all my running that I couldnt do before because most of the time at the end of two weeks im completely BROKE! I HATE being broke. When I was working I would say that I was broke but I had like $100 when I got paid again. So I had SOME money. Now, literally I have NO money at the end of two weeks. But, then again...how far can you really stretch $608 every two weeks?!? It doesnt go as far as you might think. Even tho Im not making as much, my bills dont go down. :( I did have an interview on Friday and I really hope I get it. It would be really nice. I dont have any idea how I did in the interview. The woman was really nice but I think she was already set in what she wanted her assistant to do and I didnt really have experience doing that. But, of course I tried my best to sell myself. I think I did a good job at that. As much as this would be the ideal job (its on Light Street downtown which is 6.5 miles away from my house), I have not put all my energy or thoughts into this being my job. I dont want to be disapointed when they say that they didnt want me. But, this would be a great learning experience for a job.

Home life has been good. I cant argue. Of course there are some parts that could be better but they dont out weigh the good. Me and my gf have been great. We are both excited about Thanksgiving, putting up the Christmas tree, having a Christmas party, and then Christmas. We are going to make the best of everything even with monies being tight. But, we will make it work!! Thats always been my motto. MAKE IT WORK!

My little brother is turning 18...I can NOT believe that. I remember feeding him a bottle when we were little. He has turned out to be a good kid and young man. And now he is going to be 18. WOW! My other brother is going to be 20 this year! I mean WTF?! Time goes by soooo fast. I will be 23 in February. Thats amazing. I didnt think I was going to make it this far. I was one of those bad ass kids at one point in my life. Anyhow. I am taking my brother out for birthday to the club. He asked me to take him out. He wanted me to take him to the strip club but that I was just a BIT to much for me. It was bad enough that I took my other brother there for his 18th birthday. And it was crazy awkward. I could even look at him. Ugh. Gives me the creeps just thinking about it. haha. Its okay to know that he has sex...everyone does. But, to be at strip club and have your little brother looking at the same woman on the dancefloor...Ive got to stop there. haha. ANYHOW! Im taking my brother out for his birthday. I found a club that is 18 and over for him. There arent many out there anymore. And those that do have 18 and over its only on like one night a week. Thank goodness its on a Saturday.

The other night, I guess it was Tuesday night around 6.30pm, me and my love were just finishing up dinner and we were talking. All the sudden we hear a car racing down the street and then slamming on its brakes and skidding. It was one of those skids that you are waiting for a crash. Sure as shit, we hear a crash that sounded like it was right outside our house. We jump up and run outside. The first thought I had was MY CAR! Why? Well, my car is a piece of shit...BUT its the only running vehicle I have and even if it were in an accident I wouldnt get SHIT for it. Anyhow. So we run outside and so is all the other neighbors on the street. Everyone heard the crash and came running probably all thinking my same thought. Of course the car crashs and the people in the car run. There was a cop right on the scene so Im assuming that he was chasing the car and they got into an accident. Its cold as hell outside and I come out in capri pants and a tee shirt and NO shoes or socks. haha. Thats what curiousity will do. Everyone kept mentioning that God forbid that there was kids outside. We have a good number of young kids on our block and if this had just happened a couple of weeks ago before it got really cold, it could have been bad. No one was hurt. Our neighbor across the street had her car hit and smashed in and the light post was knocked over. But, thank goodness no one got hurt.

Well, today is payday. YAY. And ive got to do a bunch of running. Of course right now I would normally get off here and go and watch some tv...but no cable. Sooo...Im just going to have to entertain myself until the mail man gets here. :) Dont be surprised if there are a shit load of pictures of myself on myspace. haha. Its what I do when Im bored.