Woke up early and couldn't fall back to sleep

I woke up at 3.30am and I laid there. And laid there. I rolled over and looked at my phone. It was 4.30am. Shortly after that I was finally able to fall asleep. It wasnt until Mary was leaving (when she woke me up), that I realized that I was not going to be able to go back to sleep, yet again. So Im up. I slept long enough anyhow. Plus, I need to go to bed later and wake up earlier. Im getting wayyyy to much sleep which is causing me to not be able to sleep at night. Although, since taking a sleeping pill for a week, I think I was able to put myself on a schedule again. At least I can fall asleep at night now.

The sleeping pill fucked me up tho. I took it and started having weird ass dreams. At first it was cool. Then the dreams started becoming bad dreams and it wasnt so cool. Ive stopped taking the sleeping pill, which has been like a week, and I STILL have these weird/bad dreams. Some are okay but some get really personal. And of course Monday night I had a bad dream and I cried about it at the dinner table last night. Im such a baby. I was having a bad day over all and talking about the dream sent me over the edge. But talking about it made me feel a little better.

And of course to help take the edge off, me and Mary sat in front of our Christmas tree. :) I like my Christmas tree. It turned out better than I thought. I was soooo worried that we were not going to have enough ornaments. But we had just enough. There isnt too much on the tree but the tree is def covered. Im happy with the way it turned out. And of course Mary is happy with the tree too.

I put the Christmas tree up on Sunday night because I couldnt wait for Monday night. I really wanted to get the tree up asap for some reason. Well, Ive been wanting to put it up since we bought the ornaments and then when the tree finally arrived. We bought a new tree...prelit. :) And I couldnt wait for it to get here. And when it did, I wanted to put it up. And im pretty sure it was before Halloween when it came. I was just so excited. This is my first Christmas tree after moving out of my mothers. It means a lot. And on top of that, its Mary and I's for tree together. We had what she likes to call her "Christmas bush." Its white painted tree sticks in a plant container filled with dirt. The dirt is just for stability. Oh and she strung up white lights on it so it would constitute as a "Christmas" bush? Yeah, Im not exactly sure, but I did know that I did not want it again this year. haha. No thanks!

We are also having a Christmas party at the house. Family and friends are coming over to celebrate with us. Of course we are all broke MF's so we called the Christmas party a "pot luck" party. Everyone is bringing something and then we are going to have some things. I would have loved to been able to make everything and just have people come but it would have been impossible. Especially since I still do not have a job. Ugh. Thats another story in itself. But we are glad everyone can come. It will be nice to get the two families together. YAY! My mom has meet everyone, but my Aunts, Uncle and grandmother havent and they havent been over my house.

Ive been decorating the house since Saturday. It looks really good. We put garland on the steps going upstairs and put our stocking up. :) Gosh, I am such a homo!!! hahaha.

Well, Im done this post today. Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving tomorrow!!!